September 7, 2011 § 2 Comments
Been a trying coupla days.
Diva screaming all day unless she’s in your arms.
I have been so stressed…I can’t even write something. Pardon me while i ramble.
I tried getting off the Zoloft once…thought I was doing well enough. Don’t know what I was thinking. I’ve only been on those meds for a coupla weeks.
Anyhow, that lasted all of 2hrs. Shocker right?
Man, this girl screams so loud I have a constant headache. Course she only starts after my mother leaves. And she screams unless shes in my arms or the baby bjorn thing. I am really starting to like that more than my moby wrap.
These are the days that makes me wonder why I wanted to be a mom again.
You know what?
People keep asking me if I want more.
Uhhh…..am I not complaining enough for ya’ll??
Lets put it this way…if Diva was born first; she woulda been an only child. That hurts cuz then there would be no monkeyman, but I guess God knew that right?
Seriously, this girl is annoying. Yeah….I said it, can’t believe I said it – but I did.
Days like this makes me wanna run away. Man…I hate that I wrote that. Twice.
And I thought I was doing so well. Hmm….guess I need to accept that this is gonna take longer than I thought. At least, I’ve been writing in my journal.
Thank God that I bought that thing.
But its hard to find the time to even do that. Diva screaming….Monkey pulling at me for attention.
Do you know how hard it is to play with a 21month old while wearing a chunky 7wk old?
There are times when I can play with monkey alone…but its few and far between. I am so grateful for my mom coming over to help.
Well, in that perspective I am getting better. My mom I mean.
I was relying on her for everything (cooking, cleaning etc). Now, I’ve been doing more. I want to do more. No longer do I want to hide under my covers.
I guess that is some progress right?
I just gotta get a handle on two screaming kids.
No biggie right?