Freedom, will it ever come?
August 29, 2011 § 1 Comment
Perfectly symbolized in the Shawshank Redemption.
Ya know that scene where Tim Robbins character finally breaks out of jail? Where he’s just standing in the creek/river/pond/thing during a rainstorm, letting the clean free rain just flow over him? Washing away the years of injustice he endured, he was finally free.
I want that.
I want to be free of this all encompassing sadness, free from this anxiety.
I will be free to be happy. I know this.
I know that day will come. I know I will be me again…but when?
Why can’t I just be me now? Especially when my kids … and my husband need me to be?
And why can’t people be more supportive in the meantime? They act like I want to be sad like this. I mean, of course I am choosing to be sad and freak out over stupid things – doesn’t everybody? Of course I have a choice but don’t shut me down when I am trying to talk things out! I am trying to reach out people!
I swear, if one more person says “well you can be happy, just stop dwelling in your sadness”….I’m a deck ’em.
And if one more person says “you just need to pray more” … they are on my freakin list. Next to their name will be written NEXT.
I’m just saying… be patient with me people.
I will be free again! I will. Man…I wish I could have some chocolate right now.